hello my dear long lost blog. i know it has been a very long time since my last entry on 2020. damn, almost three years has already passed. it is the first quarter of 2023 already. i noticed that so many things have changed here, in blogger.
i kinda miss the past blogging vibes where everyone is so into making over their blogs, learning coding, blog walking, joining contests and giveaways, etc etc. well, nothing is permanent in life, and things change, people grow. so we need to appreciate it while it lasts.
as for my life, alot has changed too. so many life lessons have molded me into who i am today. and with that, i'm glad to say that i'm happy and satisfied with myself and the path that i'm currently going through right now.
i'm now studying in bachelor of social communication, officially signed as a student at upsi. which is what i really dreamed for. with that, there goes a new phase in my life. a fresh responsibility that i need to shoulder. being a form 6 student is already a quite tough for me so stepping into degree life absolutely startles me even more. i used to read on twitter how everyone is talking about how tough life is at university. now that i'm in it, yes, it is precisely true. but thankfully, i'm slowly adapting with the environment now. i learn that life is surely tough but it is how you manage to set a blueprint of your life is significant in making sure the smoothness of your life journey. it is correlated.
to be frank, this course wasn't really my first choice. my initial one was tesl. however, i didn't pass for the entry interview. i was devastated that i didn't got my call to attend the interview. i was somber for daysssss. i didn't respond to anyone's texts, i basically went into ghost mode for an entire week. luckily, there's this one amazing person that helped me get through that phase. he's the one who motivates me, reminding me everyday that i'm not a failure, that whatever happens, i'll be fine and he's proud of me no matter what i do. (it wasn't that big of a deal but i'm so dramatic, i know). therefore, i applied for the second intake immediately but under a different programme, the one i'm studying right now. the fact that i applied for this course is mainly because of my parents. simply because i wasn't interested to pursue other courses except language. it is actually a quite risky decision making for me to go through the course that is out of my desire because i was (and still am) so unsocialable and have troubles communicating. lol. ironic, isn't it? funny.
luck was on my side this time. i got called for the entry interview for this course. i wasn't really excited about it. however, i still did my very best for the interview, despite it being conducted via google meet. i did my research about the course and memorized my script. as luck would have it, one week after the interview, i got a message from the students admission of upsi that i got accepted for the programme. my boyfriend was the first person i tell after my parents. it took me 3 days to think whether i wanna go or not. after decisions was made, i was hastily preparing all the documentations. i had less than one week to prepare for my going away. it was definitely wasn't easy. i cried alot.
one thing i know, when you positively set your mind that you will somehow able to survive, you will survive. because i'm confident that if i got through it before, i will get through it again. i had survived my first semester of scary rides. but throughout it all, every new step or phase that i take in life will surely come with lessons. i become more patient, i learned to be punctual with time, i become more organized and responsible. being a degree student surely taught me a lot since i need to adapt and confront with new environment and different kind of persons there respectively.
university life teaches me a lot. i become sad and frustrate today and then happy tomorrow. it is just how life is. i look forward to graduate on time with honors. i'll try to update a few pictures here and write regularly for memories and keeps. i'm still learning to balance between socials, studies and hobbies.
thank you for reading. i'll talk to you again soon.
xoxo, A.