i'm doing my assignments, but i can't think straight because i miss my boyfriend.
i have never really been single my whole life. i started dating my first boyfriend when i was 10. but i was innocent and immature. all throughout school year, my relationship history was a blur. graduating from high school at 2019, went through a long healing and self-love phase until 2021, where i started talking to strangers on tinder. mind you, i have terrible social skills. therefore, the sole purpose i signed up for tinder was to make friends. it was the global pandemic, how else was i supposed to meet people if not on the internet? i never intended to find a lover on that app.
then comes a guy. a charming one. tall, curly hair, has a really cute smile and a charming personality. i stumbled across his profile when i was swiping left and right on tinder. i thought, "oh, he's cute" and his bio was "can anyone teach me how to play genshin impact?" corny, but swipe right i go. a day after, i found out that we matched, but he didn't left a chat. now, hear me out, i never once in my whole life, initiate a conversation with a guy no matter how attracted i am to him. but i don't know why, at that very moment, i wanted to get to know this guy. so badly. i didn't know how i got the courage and confidence. i didn’t know what pushed me. but i didn't want to sound desperate as i wanna keep my cool. i started the chat with "aw, too bad i don't play genshin impact" to which he replied "that's fine. we can still be friends" a few minutes after. i'm smiling ear to ear while typing this.
it wasn't long that we both felt like we clicked. he was so easy to talk to because other people made me uninterested as i had grown tired of talking to random guys and no one made it to get my phone number. but this one did. i asked for his number and his social media accounts. we then settled to proceed our conversation on telegram.
we talked for hours about random stuff and exchanged playlists. he even made a discord server for us. we video called for the first time and the whole three hours, i was star-strucked by everything, from the way he looked, how gentle he talked to me and how funny he was. although we both agreed to a talking stage, but 3 days after getting to know each other, at the midnight of 31st august 2021, i told him "let's make it official, i'm ready if you are". he asked for my hand, proposed to be my boyfriend. and the rest was history.
we are distanced by 1,000 miles away. but that didn't kill the spark. eventhough there are times that i thought i couldn't be patient, that i just wanna swim the ocean to meet him, that i'd kill just to feel his skin on my skin. there were some nights that i drowned in my sadness and all i wanted was to feel his hug. despite the arguments, fights and misunderstandments. our love was strong. it was bigger than the ocean that separates us.
this guy is heaven sent. he’s there through all of my ups and downs, he’s there for me when no one else is, he understands me and always listens to me. he never even once raise his voice at me nor get angry. he’s soft-spoken and gentle with the way he treats me. he makes me want to improve myself and become a better person.
i'm the luckiest girl ever. he makes feel some type of way when i thought the butterflies in my stomach are already dead. we’ve been together for over two years now and he’s still the same like he was when i first met him. i'm thankful that i swiped right on him. his love is the greatest gift, i’ll cherish it and keep him forever.
i'm writing this post because i don't want to forget this memory. ever.
i love you til death do us part and heaven bring us back together, F.
xoxo, A.